The Truth About Loss

Have you ever noticed how when some people suffer a loss, large or small, they often think that there was no ‘reason’ for it, as if actual reasoning had been spent on wondering why things play out in their lives in the way that they do? The thing is, nature doesn’t need to give you a reason, it just is.

Dealing with the pain of loss requires an elevated consciousness. It requires a more balanced mind, body and spirit to accept that losses have usually restored balance, karmic or otherwise. Even our own actions often result in losses that we then lament over, but we fail to see the deliberation in which we made it happen and only later, with the help of The Hermit, can we see the role we played in our outcomes and the benefits of having had them to begin with.

Loss allows us to feel gratitude for what we had and even the strength we now realize we possess when we choose to give something up willingly.  Sometimes we want things to last longer, but protecting delicate flowers in a windstorm just isn’t possible. Things come and go and as we brave our personal storms, we can either pick up steam and remember how we’ve been positively affected by change or we can equate loss with failure and what we no longer have.

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The Truth About Self-Deception

THE TRUTH ABOUT SELF-DECEPTION. The difficulty with self-deception is that even if we know we are deluding ourselves it is incredibly hard to accept because the cause of much of our delusions got their start by believing in something that had been passed on to us by people we love and/or trusted–these people wear many hats. And it’s not that they all did this deliberately, but it shows how deep self-deception goes and how it can easily morph into delusion.

Once we’ve accepted something as an absolute truth it creates a blockage that makes it extremely difficult to overcome and by that I mean, it does not allow for balance in your life. Instead of seeing that there is Strength in compromise, you may feel a nagging incompatibility due to a lack of Temperance–an imbalance resulting from expecting everyone to see things your way.
People who self-deceive, will undoubtedly at some point ask, “Why won’t this work? Why won’t anyone listen and why does this shit keep happening to me?” And the answer is because you refuse to understand that your extreme or stubborn way of thinking cannot exist without its polar opposite and that if you’re looking for real love or respect, that can only come when you consciously allow conditioned beliefs to air out and consider the possibility that there is more than one truth.

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The Truth About The Devil

THE DEVIL & HAPPINESS. I went to sleep last night with the intention of finding answers to share with you about the secrets of Happiness and the response I got this morning was a message about…The Devil. Such are the mysteries of understanding and gaining knowledge.

The ignorance I will mention now is the blindness to the powers we each have within us and a belief that happiness is something you can only obtain through material gains or power over others. It is the belief that we are bound to worthless garbage as a necessity to living a successful and boastful life. The use and glorification of dark symbolism, as cool as some may be conditioned to think it is, in reality only glorifies the oppression of the human spirit and our potential. The pentagram may represent Man, but the inverted pentagram denies the power of man’s place in the universe–it encourages bondage to something other than himself. .

Happily, The Devil card represents the beginning of a conscious awareness to our self imposed enslavement by the physical, the purely sense-oriented things that are only distractions of life. Happiness is letting go of the superficial and consciously bitch-slapping temptation out of your life. It means letting go of the struggle to maintain a self-important position. Once accomplished, a reality that had once been shrouded in glittery darkness will start to reveal where the true happiness lies.

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The Calamity In Our Lives

Chaos and calamity can come in many forms and I think it’s worth mentioning right now because it’s come up in several client readings lately which, to me, reveals something that is more pervasive than we might imagine. This goes beyond our views on politics, social issues or how the media makes us feel and react to their spin on reality–the emotional responses we express from external things serves only as a distraction from healing and understanding our internal chaos.

It’s obvious that people have taken on issues and causes in warrior like fashion because they ARE angry, only much of what ails us resides deep inside and we can never get to fixing it because we are offered so many other options to vent our anger. We see the world as a chaotic and unfair place that we think we need to fix, when in fact, the external calamities will fade when and if we are able to work on ourselves first.  Consider the source of our dark responses and the heaviness associated with it, only then will its intensity let up and the lightness you feel inside will outshine the darkness imposed on us in the manipulative matrix.

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The Self-Imposed Ties that Bind

Last night I had a dream in which someone that I used to consider a friend came at me with a large pair of scissors. At first I saw the symbolism as a threat to my safety, but quickly realized that it was more about projection and a message relating to binding.

In life, the person in my dream is loud, ‘justice’ oriented and unwavering in his beliefs of what he considers virtuous. His politics and expression are of the dark variety that projects his own guilt and conditioning onto others as if everyone around him suffers from deep seated bigotry and hatred. He, and many like him, literally want people to be divided, but their programming tells them it’s something else. He is bound by his conditioned beliefs and gets confirmation that he is virtuous from others who are under the same spell — and it is a spell– a spell that is designed to invert reality. I can go on about this and I suggest you do your own research into how tech, the media, movies, etc. controls our thinking, but I want to make my point as it relates to binding.

Is your bondage self-imposed?

The scissors in my dream represented the act of cutting free from what binds us and it brought to mind the image of the VIII Swords. This image can represent our inability to grasp our influences and how they often negatively effect us and keep us enslaved. Upon waking, I delved further into this dream message to get a deeper understanding.

As long as we cling to unfound beliefs, go along for the ride with like-minded ‘thinkers’, we can never escape the real pain and turmoil which lies within. Our true anger and pain is not what we choose to see in others, that only functions to deny our spiritual growth and prevents us from understanding something much greater than ourselves. What we project onto others merely divides us and is an insidious distraction from gaining sweet, soul singing knowledge that would destroy all doubt and the imagined hate that some of us choose to think effects every waking moment of our lives.

By working towards creating equilibrium, we can begin to address and solve the things in life that do not serve us. The Temperance card reminds us that a balance of heart and mind will help us to intelligently forge ahead without having to talk over others when our paradigms are at risk. Do we allow our emotions to go haywire, preventing us from achieving equilibrium? Do they blind us to a greater truth and encourage a rage that is disguised as strength, when it is actually fear? Ask yourself how you might be binding yourself from growth or limiting your scope. And are you willingly falling under the spell of a force whose aim is to literally suppress your spirit?

We need to understand when we are being manipulated and when we willingly bind ourselves to certain beliefs and thinking. True freedom will not take place until this is something we become aware of. And like the woman in VIII of Swords card, it may just be a matter of backing up, cutting the cords and using your mind and reason as suggested by Temperance to get closer to what is true.

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Are You Missing Out on Valuable Life Lessons?

Have you noticed that so many people think they know everything there is to know about life without having had the real experience or much to base their opinions on? is pretty bad. They increasingly demand that others live according to what they think is right and condemn those who think outside of their horribly limited paradigms, their weakened emotions impel them to project a fascistic behavior onto others in the name of ‘fairness’, but mostly it’s just repeated words they’ve heard in institutations of conditioning and 4am talking points established within the mainstream mockingbird media.

As annoying as these people are, I feel bad for them and often wonder what I can do to broaden their perspective that they can see the proverbial forrest for the trees. I’m still wondering. But with regard to the tarot, they are missing out on what The World card can teach them. The World card is the last in the series of the Major Arcana and represents an enlightened consciousness and the symbolic end down a path of learning and understanding.

When we are presented with this card, it often asks us to determine whether or not we’ve learned lessons while we’ve been on our individual paths. Have we learned from our mistakes? Are we allowing the spark within us to teach us things that the media will always get wrong? Have we built up our intuition or have we just gone along with whatever we’ve been forced fed? The World card demands that the querant look within himself to answer these questions. If we don’t work from within, the joys offered by this card can never be felt or realized, we will continue on the Fool’s Path repeating negative patterns and ultimately falling head first into the abyss.

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Agency – Subliminal Cinema and Dirty Politics

AGENCY (1980) aka Mind Games
Dir. George Kaczender
Wr. Noel Hynd

SEEING THE MOVIES. Symbolism and Messaging in the Movies.
Mind Control / Dirty Politics

A Creative Director (Lee Majors) at a big advertising agency uncovers the hush-hush projects masterminded by agency owner (Robert Michum) that use subliminal messaging to influence the outcome of political elections. “I retired the Chairman of the Senate Foreign Relations Committee.” he brags.

Even to goody-goody Majors, inserting propaganda and hidden messaging into their commercials is just another day at the office, “Some of us put phallic images in perfume commercials and others hide lewd photographs in cigarette ads.” But he develops a conscience when it comes to politics and still can’t stomach the manipulation even when Michum tries to reason with him, “The public wants to be led, it needs to be led.” Sounds familiar.

When we finally see the subliminal tape that helped win an election, it is filled with sounds of screaming, babies crying, Hitler speeches and visuals of sex and depravity. It’s interesting how today, subliminal tapes are probably much dispensed with and instead detractors just make the same bold accusations without any proof. The brainwashing techniques of today rely on complicit media and repetition.

Agency would make a quaint, fun film for the propagandists of today, and though the techniques used in the film are known to work, it was a very little seen movie and did little to nothing at the box office on its original release.

Q – The Movie

In this series, Seeing The Movies, I will be looking at some of the symbolism and hidden messages in movies and television.


I wanted to start off with a movie that carries a powerful title and a provocative theme. We have to ask ourselves, is this just a monster movie or was the director trying to tell us something about what might actually be going on in the world today? Am I reading more into this than was ever intended? Were his ideas pulled from a collective unconscious that spoke a truth the public is not supposed to know about? We may never know for sure, but it’s fun to look at and I’ll leave it up to time and the reader to decide for themselves.

Q (1982)
Dir. Larry Cohen
Starring: David Carradine, Michael Moriarty, Richard Roundtre

Besides the amazing title, Q, there were a few things here that intrigued me enough to take another look at this film, one of which was the recent sale of the Chrysler Building. I’m a big fan of writer/director Larry Cohen and had seen this film before, but not since the arrival of our favorite Anon.

Q and the Chrysler Building.

Q takes place in New York City and is a modern throwback to 50s-style monster movies. What we have is a giant winged serpent flying around Manhattan killing rooftop sunbathers and construction workers. But oddly, as enormous and plain as day as the creature is, the entire populatioin of Manhattan seems blind to what flies overhead, not seeing what by all accounts is right before their eyes.

We learn from a museum expert that Quetzalcoatl, is an Aztec deity that has been resurrected through ritual murders that are taking place around the city. One character says, “It was prayed back into existence.” and that “Blood must be given willingly for the God to appreciate it.” The creature is finally found to be roosting in the top of Chrysler Building and this is where the final confrontation takes place.

Seeing Q:
Like the inhabitants of Cohen’s New York City, are we not seeing the world around us and what is happening before our very eyes? Are there actual blood sacrifices going on today in efforts to reincarnate an ancient deity or open a portal to allow it reentry? The concept conjures up images of Spirit Cooking, CERN and countless music videos that seem to encourage the idea. I would even go so far as to suggest that late term abortion and Democrat approved infanticide could easily fall under the category of ritual blood sacrifice when compared to this storyline. And if we parallel this with the film which has a character telling us that the blood must be given willingly, that is just what is happening with LTA. Is this really for the ‘health’ of the mother or does the sudden demand for infanticide serve other purposes as they do in Q?

What is the symbolism of a talking mime? Are we getting our infomation from voices who should not be talking?
Q finds a rooftop pyramid to land on.

Conspiracy theorists may note and remember that the star of Q, David Carradine, died under mysterious circumstances in a Bangkok hotel in 2009. Was it really auto erotic asphyxiation as the media claimed or was it something else?

As I mentioned above, just last week, The Chrysler Building was in the news because it sold for only $150 million, an insane loss of about $700 million, a loss suffered due to rising land rent and competition from newer luxury buildings–and in my opinion the decline of New York City.

Michael Moriarty and Dracula.

I will leave you with this last thought. The above photo is a good example of what I consider to be messaging that goes beyond telling the story at hand. Why would an auteur like Larry Cohen or any other thoughtful director include something in a film that had no meaning? What is the purpose of having this large image of Dracula sucking the blood of a victim framed perfectly behind the main character? Is this the type of thing that is going on behind our backs? Are the equivalent of vampires, sucking our life force right out in the open while we, like this main character, flail around grasping for money and material things that we think will bring happiness? Are we so distracted by our greed that we’ve become blind and completely insensitive? It’s telling that early on in the film, this character can’t even take a rare compliment and says, “What do you know?!” instead of simply saying, “Thank you.”.

Just a few things to think about.

Seeing The Movies – Cinema Mind Control and Symbolism

Know what you’re being fed.

Just a quick announcement that I will be updating this blog with a new series called Seeing The Movies. It is about symbolism, messaging and narratives that are pushed on is in film and television.

I have started a Group on the QArmy Social Network and hope to see some patriots there to discuss and share more secrets that are coming to light. More to come.

Forcing A Creative Environment


If you’ve been following along here or Instagram, you are aware of my Photos From The Matrix project. For the past six months I’ve been photographing myself in grocery stores and other places of business to assist me in elaborating on the idea of seperation from nature, immersion in the artificial and the importance we put on our digital selves. I think some of you just thought I enjoyed standing motionless in grocery stores!


These self-portraits allow me to create a glitch in the system. It is how I can pop a bubble of illusion simply by blending into it instead of imagining that I am separate from it. It’s like a sudden penetrating heat that cracks ice or pops a kernel of corn and turns it into something soft and fluffy. It’s about seeing patterns and creating new ones.

I find myself expressing these things because this is how I feel, this is what I see and this is the discomfort I experience when I am increasingly encroached upon by the unnatural. If there is a takeaway to all of this it’s this, If I can see and feel something that is corroding my sensibilities, obscuring my individual light of creativity, and discouraging personal growth–then everyone can. If you think you can’t you have to ask yourself why?


This is one way that I have taken a personal stand against certain forces and systems that I do not believe in or that I don’t want to take part in. It has helped to keep me thinking as an individual and to live life in a way where I am able to give back honestly and of myself. It reminds me of what matters, what’s good for me and how we need to make an effort to create things of beauty and to reject what makes us less than what we are.


How do YOU push back against a system that would rather suppress your individual voice and creativity? Getting to the core of our creative being is not always easy. My book Toxic Rainbows explains how I did it and offers a pathwork that opens the doors of possibility to anyone ready to do the work involved.