The Self-Imposed Ties that Bind

Last night I had a dream in which someone that I used to consider a friend came at me with a large pair of scissors. At first I saw the symbolism as a threat to my safety, but quickly realized that it was more about projection and a message relating to binding.

In life, the person in my dream is loud, ‘justice’ oriented and unwavering in his beliefs of what he considers virtuous. His politics and expression are of the dark variety that projects his own guilt and conditioning onto others as if everyone around him suffers from deep seated bigotry and hatred. He, and many like him, literally want people to be divided, but their programming tells them it’s something else. He is bound by his conditioned beliefs and gets confirmation that he is virtuous from others who are under the same spell — and it is a spell– a spell that is designed to invert reality. I can go on about this and I suggest you do your own research into how tech, the media, movies, etc. controls our thinking, but I want to make my point as it relates to binding.

Is your bondage self-imposed?

The scissors in my dream represented the act of cutting free from what binds us and it brought to mind the image of the VIII Swords. This image can represent our inability to grasp our influences and how they often negatively effect us and keep us enslaved. Upon waking, I delved further into this dream message to get a deeper understanding.

As long as we cling to unfound beliefs, go along for the ride with like-minded ‘thinkers’, we can never escape the real pain and turmoil which lies within. Our true anger and pain is not what we choose to see in others, that only functions to deny our spiritual growth and prevents us from understanding something much greater than ourselves. What we project onto others merely divides us and is an insidious distraction from gaining sweet, soul singing knowledge that would destroy all doubt and the imagined hate that some of us choose to think effects every waking moment of our lives.

By working towards creating equilibrium, we can begin to address and solve the things in life that do not serve us. The Temperance card reminds us that a balance of heart and mind will help us to intelligently forge ahead without having to talk over others when our paradigms are at risk. Do we allow our emotions to go haywire, preventing us from achieving equilibrium? Do they blind us to a greater truth and encourage a rage that is disguised as strength, when it is actually fear? Ask yourself how you might be binding yourself from growth or limiting your scope. And are you willingly falling under the spell of a force whose aim is to literally suppress your spirit?

We need to understand when we are being manipulated and when we willingly bind ourselves to certain beliefs and thinking. True freedom will not take place until this is something we become aware of. And like the woman in VIII of Swords card, it may just be a matter of backing up, cutting the cords and using your mind and reason as suggested by Temperance to get closer to what is true.

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Are You Missing Out on Valuable Life Lessons?

Have you noticed that so many people think they know everything there is to know about life without having had the real experience or much to base their opinions on? is pretty bad. They increasingly demand that others live according to what they think is right and condemn those who think outside of their horribly limited paradigms, their weakened emotions impel them to project a fascistic behavior onto others in the name of ‘fairness’, but mostly it’s just repeated words they’ve heard in institutations of conditioning and 4am talking points established within the mainstream mockingbird media.

As annoying as these people are, I feel bad for them and often wonder what I can do to broaden their perspective that they can see the proverbial forrest for the trees. I’m still wondering. But with regard to the tarot, they are missing out on what The World card can teach them. The World card is the last in the series of the Major Arcana and represents an enlightened consciousness and the symbolic end down a path of learning and understanding.

When we are presented with this card, it often asks us to determine whether or not we’ve learned lessons while we’ve been on our individual paths. Have we learned from our mistakes? Are we allowing the spark within us to teach us things that the media will always get wrong? Have we built up our intuition or have we just gone along with whatever we’ve been forced fed? The World card demands that the querant look within himself to answer these questions. If we don’t work from within, the joys offered by this card can never be felt or realized, we will continue on the Fool’s Path repeating negative patterns and ultimately falling head first into the abyss.

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Agency – Subliminal Cinema and Dirty Politics

AGENCY (1980) aka Mind Games
Dir. George Kaczender
Wr. Noel Hynd

SEEING THE MOVIES. Symbolism and Messaging in the Movies.
Mind Control / Dirty Politics

A Creative Director (Lee Majors) at a big advertising agency uncovers the hush-hush projects masterminded by agency owner (Robert Michum) that use subliminal messaging to influence the outcome of political elections. “I retired the Chairman of the Senate Foreign Relations Committee.” he brags.

Even to goody-goody Majors, inserting propaganda and hidden messaging into their commercials is just another day at the office, “Some of us put phallic images in perfume commercials and others hide lewd photographs in cigarette ads.” But he develops a conscience when it comes to politics and still can’t stomach the manipulation even when Michum tries to reason with him, “The public wants to be led, it needs to be led.” Sounds familiar.

When we finally see the subliminal tape that helped win an election, it is filled with sounds of screaming, babies crying, Hitler speeches and visuals of sex and depravity. It’s interesting how today, subliminal tapes are probably much dispensed with and instead detractors just make the same bold accusations without any proof. The brainwashing techniques of today rely on complicit media and repetition.

Agency would make a quaint, fun film for the propagandists of today, and though the techniques used in the film are known to work, it was a very little seen movie and did little to nothing at the box office on its original release.

Q – The Movie

In this series, Seeing The Movies, I will be looking at some of the symbolism and hidden messages in movies and television.


I wanted to start off with a movie that carries a powerful title and a provocative theme. We have to ask ourselves, is this just a monster movie or was the director trying to tell us something about what might actually be going on in the world today? Am I reading more into this than was ever intended? Were his ideas pulled from a collective unconscious that spoke a truth the public is not supposed to know about? We may never know for sure, but it’s fun to look at and I’ll leave it up to time and the reader to decide for themselves.

Q (1982)
Dir. Larry Cohen
Starring: David Carradine, Michael Moriarty, Richard Roundtre

Besides the amazing title, Q, there were a few things here that intrigued me enough to take another look at this film, one of which was the recent sale of the Chrysler Building. I’m a big fan of writer/director Larry Cohen and had seen this film before, but not since the arrival of our favorite Anon.

Q and the Chrysler Building.

Q takes place in New York City and is a modern throwback to 50s-style monster movies. What we have is a giant winged serpent flying around Manhattan killing rooftop sunbathers and construction workers. But oddly, as enormous and plain as day as the creature is, the entire populatioin of Manhattan seems blind to what flies overhead, not seeing what by all accounts is right before their eyes.

We learn from a museum expert that Quetzalcoatl, is an Aztec deity that has been resurrected through ritual murders that are taking place around the city. One character says, “It was prayed back into existence.” and that “Blood must be given willingly for the God to appreciate it.” The creature is finally found to be roosting in the top of Chrysler Building and this is where the final confrontation takes place.

Seeing Q:
Like the inhabitants of Cohen’s New York City, are we not seeing the world around us and what is happening before our very eyes? Are there actual blood sacrifices going on today in efforts to reincarnate an ancient deity or open a portal to allow it reentry? The concept conjures up images of Spirit Cooking, CERN and countless music videos that seem to encourage the idea. I would even go so far as to suggest that late term abortion and Democrat approved infanticide could easily fall under the category of ritual blood sacrifice when compared to this storyline. And if we parallel this with the film which has a character telling us that the blood must be given willingly, that is just what is happening with LTA. Is this really for the ‘health’ of the mother or does the sudden demand for infanticide serve other purposes as they do in Q?

What is the symbolism of a talking mime? Are we getting our infomation from voices who should not be talking?
Q finds a rooftop pyramid to land on.

Conspiracy theorists may note and remember that the star of Q, David Carradine, died under mysterious circumstances in a Bangkok hotel in 2009. Was it really auto erotic asphyxiation as the media claimed or was it something else?

As I mentioned above, just last week, The Chrysler Building was in the news because it sold for only $150 million, an insane loss of about $700 million, a loss suffered due to rising land rent and competition from newer luxury buildings–and in my opinion the decline of New York City.

Michael Moriarty and Dracula.

I will leave you with this last thought. The above photo is a good example of what I consider to be messaging that goes beyond telling the story at hand. Why would an auteur like Larry Cohen or any other thoughtful director include something in a film that had no meaning? What is the purpose of having this large image of Dracula sucking the blood of a victim framed perfectly behind the main character? Is this the type of thing that is going on behind our backs? Are the equivalent of vampires, sucking our life force right out in the open while we, like this main character, flail around grasping for money and material things that we think will bring happiness? Are we so distracted by our greed that we’ve become blind and completely insensitive? It’s telling that early on in the film, this character can’t even take a rare compliment and says, “What do you know?!” instead of simply saying, “Thank you.”.

Just a few things to think about.

Seeing The Movies – Cinema Mind Control and Symbolism

Know what you’re being fed.

Just a quick announcement that I will be updating this blog with a new series called Seeing The Movies. It is about symbolism, messaging and narratives that are pushed on is in film and television.

I have started a Group on the QArmy Social Network and hope to see some patriots there to discuss and share more secrets that are coming to light. More to come.

Forcing A Creative Environment


If you’ve been following along here or Instagram, you are aware of my Photos From The Matrix project. For the past six months I’ve been photographing myself in grocery stores and other places of business to assist me in elaborating on the idea of seperation from nature, immersion in the artificial and the importance we put on our digital selves. I think some of you just thought I enjoyed standing motionless in grocery stores!


These self-portraits allow me to create a glitch in the system. It is how I can pop a bubble of illusion simply by blending into it instead of imagining that I am separate from it. It’s like a sudden penetrating heat that cracks ice or pops a kernel of corn and turns it into something soft and fluffy. It’s about seeing patterns and creating new ones.

I find myself expressing these things because this is how I feel, this is what I see and this is the discomfort I experience when I am increasingly encroached upon by the unnatural. If there is a takeaway to all of this it’s this, If I can see and feel something that is corroding my sensibilities, obscuring my individual light of creativity, and discouraging personal growth–then everyone can. If you think you can’t you have to ask yourself why?


This is one way that I have taken a personal stand against certain forces and systems that I do not believe in or that I don’t want to take part in. It has helped to keep me thinking as an individual and to live life in a way where I am able to give back honestly and of myself. It reminds me of what matters, what’s good for me and how we need to make an effort to create things of beauty and to reject what makes us less than what we are.


How do YOU push back against a system that would rather suppress your individual voice and creativity? Getting to the core of our creative being is not always easy. My book Toxic Rainbows explains how I did it and offers a pathwork that opens the doors of possibility to anyone ready to do the work involved.


Creative Self Expression Saved My Life

I recently retitled my blog to Saved By Self Expression because I believe that our unique creative expression is the answer to many of our perceived problems.

Everything I write here is tied to our thinking, molding, influences and whether or not the ideas that we express as our own, actually are our authentic beliefs. This is linked directly to our emotions which leads to the question of, “Am I responding emotionally based on my own reasoning and experience, or am I responding to someone elses’s?”


Let’s forget about all of our ‘problems’, the ‘injustices”, feelings of ‘victimhood’, etc. Notice I put those words in quotes, that’s because these are what we choose to focus on and thus we define ourselves as the things we so despise. Let’s not do that.

In my book Toxic Rainbows, I cover a lot of  ground relating to influences and how ideas are impressed upon us without being fully cognizant that we are being indoctrinated and conditioned to thoughts and beliefs that are not really ours. Suddenly we find ourselves part of a group experience where we repeat the thoughts and emotional pleas of others and express them as our own, in the process we are snuffing out the light of creativity that is within us.


Older readers and the unplugged can remember the active creativity of our young minds and time spent in imaginative thought, but perhaps younger people of today have been brought up to immerse themselves in a digital world where their heads are bent down to look at a screen on a handheld device, and sadly, those practices are doing little to enhance their creative abilities, I would go so far as to say their creativity is being stunted. It’s time to unplug, put down the ‘Smart’ devices and resist the temptation to download yet another app to add to the scores of digital distraction you may already be in possession of.

The overwhelming complaint about embracing a life of creativity and imagination is that people often don’t know what to do with themselves or they claim boredom.  Access to our inner light and creative core is possible, but we need to let go of the influences, condtioning and belief systems that have created self-doubt and feelings that what YOU have to offer isn’t as important as the desires of other people.


Here’s the thing, once you are able to let go of the influence of others, whether in the form of overbearing relatives, emotional news anchors or virtue signaling co-workers, then you can begin to heal and create.

The most important thing for people to remember is that by following our own hearts, feeling from our core and deciding for ourselves what truth  is, it  is easy to see that we’ve never turned our backs on anyone.  What we’ve done is allowed ourselves to reach a place where we can actually give of ourselves which is much more powerful and rewarding than being a single voice in a mob-think position….you will actually be heard and your special gift can be shared and enjoyed by the rest of the world.


Takeaway: Examine the things in your life where you find yourself giving, but not are not getting anything in return. Does where you put your energy leave you depleted, angry or repeating the thoughts and feelings of others? Think about what you can do that will allow you the time and  peace of mind to do some serious self-reflection.  Once you reach that point, you can then focus on your true self and your creative gifts that everyone can benefit from.

If you have any questions, feel free to contact me directly or leave a comment. Please follow along as I reveal  more truths, how to ‘let go’, how to tap into your own creativity and even discovering what it is.

About the art. I am not just a writer and coach. I am also an artist and find many ways to think creatively, one of them is by working with paper.








Fear and Self Loathing

Fear is the driving force that inspires most things in our lives.
Fear is so powerful that it controls almost all the things that we do and the ways in which we think. It’s incredible to imagine that something with so much power to inspire is the kryptonite that cripples us.

Fear is the thing that prevents us from knowing our truth. It allows us to cling to old ideas and beliefs in order to maintain a paradigm that does not serve us, but keeps us comfortably numb. This fear and self-denial becomes the cornerstone of a life built on misrepresentation. Avoidance by fear obscures pathways that lead to overcoming pain and suffering —the same suffering that we choose to believe doesn’t exist.

Fear is at the core of our issues relating to denial, bullying, and self-loathing. It is usually the reason why we choose blame over trying to understand why we react in the ways that we do. The subconscious reason for blame is a fear in confronting our own failings and having to admit self-deception. We desperately avoid situations that will lead to the discovery that we are the cause of our own suffering—this is the root of fear.

For more insights and pathways that lead to a greater understanding of self, look for my book Toxic Rainbows.

About the photo: The photo memes I create address topics of communication breakdown and other concepts which are deeply tied to our post-internet lives.  These and other issues are discussed at  more length in my book.  More ideas and memes can be seen on my Instagram account.


Social Media Depression


ToxicRainbowsCvrSqIt’s interestng that a ‘new’ study conducted by psychologists at the University of Pennsylvania determined that use of social media sites like (and particularly) Facebook  causes …wait for it… depression.   No surprise there, but I say this is ‘interesting’ only because studies like this seem to have been coming out for years making these claiims.  I didn’t have to resort to another one to know first hand that social media is a big player in producing self doubt and loneliness, all I ever needed to do was get online and see it for myself.

The grasping, the vying for attention, the compulsive posting and commenting all screamed, “Look at me! Look at me!”.  It doesn’t take a degree in psychology to understand what is going on and to see that people are suffering and appear more alienated each day.

In my book, Toxic Rainbows, I talk quite about the detrimental effects of social media and it’s influence on our behavior. In my opinion, it is one of the first things many of us need to overcome before we can start making improvements in our lives.

My request to you as that you THINK hard about how you use social media and figure out if it’s providing you with a sense of fulfillment and joy when you log on and/or off. Contemplating your use is only the start and I encourage you to read my book and delve deeper. You owe it to yourself.





Best Self Help Books For Men


We all know how difficult it is to get some men to do things like going to the doctor, admitting a mistake or…gasp…read a Self Help book!  I know this is a generalization, but just as women are known to be more intuitive, some men just don’t want to admit or show weakness by browsing the self-help section.  But the truth is that making those first steps at improving ourselves is a great sign of strength and an improvement in itself.

A wonderful list of the ‘Best Self Help Books For Men’ was compiled by self improvement website Upjourney and my choices along with my book, Toxic Rainbows was included on the truly inspired list.

From my review:

Lucio focuses on issues that both deceive and weigh heavily on men, perception and the expectations imposed on them by others.

The book takes on a philosophical and sociological approach steeped in reason in order to grasp, then overcome our self-imposed failings. Men may appreciate the no-exit approach to this self-help book and be eager for the challenge.

The book also gives a welcome opportunity for men to see how their hidden talents have been obscured and offers an opening to pursue their dreams in a fresh and energetic way that leaves little room for negative influence.

Connecting with what the author calls Creative Self Expression, the individual is then in a position to answer hard questions like, “What is my purpose?” and to finally understand how he controls the meaning and rewards offered in his life.

Check out the entire list here.