Fear and Self Loathing

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Fear is the driving force that inspires most things in our lives.
Fear is so powerful that it controls almost all the things that we do and the ways in which we think. It’s incredible to imagine that something with so much power to inspire is the kryptonite that cripples us.

Fear is the thing that prevents us from knowing our truth. It allows us to cling to old ideas and beliefs in order to maintain a paradigm that does not serve us, but keeps us comfortably numb. This fear and self-denial becomes the cornerstone of a life built on misrepresentation. Avoidance by fear obscures pathways that lead to overcoming pain and suffering —the same suffering that we choose to believe doesn’t exist.

Fear is at the core of our issues relating to denial, bullying, and self-loathing. It is usually the reason why we choose blame over trying to understand why we react in the ways that we do. The subconscious reason for blame is a fear in confronting our own failings and having to admit self-deception. We desperately avoid situations that will lead to the discovery that we are the cause of our own suffering—this is the root of fear.

For more insights and pathways that lead to a greater understanding of self, look for my book Toxic Rainbows.

About the photo: The photo memes I create address topics of communication breakdown and other concepts which are deeply tied to our post-internet lives.  These and other issues are discussed at  more length in my book.  More ideas and memes can be seen on my Instagram account.

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Medication as a Way of Life

I understand that there are a lot of people out there who suffer varying degrees of pain, whether it be in the form of anxiety, depression, or self-esteem. I like to remind people that we need to feel our pain and that medication is not always the thing that will get us through our problems. Yes, in the short term it may cover over the pain, but what happens when the medication wears off? Are we to quickly accept the idea of a lifetime of prescription refills?

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Obviously, our medical options and medicines are essential and they save lives every day, but on the other hand, we are made to feel and experience pain. We are built to overcome. We are made to learn and discover who we are and pain is part of that process.  I won’t even try to comprehend or connect the multitude of dots that correspond with the miseries associated with mixing medication and the side effects and abuses that meds take on the human body. It’s bad–and as miraculous as our bodies are, it can’t fight a battle where our medications are literally tricking it into behaving abnormally, creating feelings of loneliness and even suicide.

I am not a medical doctor and have no authority when it comes to prescription medicines, but I’ve noticed something disturbing when sometimes talking with clients and even friends and that is that I often feel like I’m not actually talking with the person, but with the side effects of medication.

The issue of prescription drug abuse/use and the alarming manner in which they are prescribed is disturbing to me, particularly because everything I write about, all of the exercises and manner in which I try to nudge people into taking charge of their lives is pointless if we are deadened by meds. We simply can’t discover our true selves and our true nature when our emotions and thoughts are clouded over by the effects of being overly medicated.

My suggestion is to get a second opinion and think twice about whether you think you can or cannot overcome a ‘problem’ in your life through medication. Consider holistic approaches, acupuncture, meditation, or even hypnosis. I’m don’t have kids, but I know I would try other options before setting them on a lifelong path of medicating, particularly where meds are presented as the only solution to problems that are common to every day life.

Just today in a grocery store, a voice on the loudspeaker used fear mongering to pressure shoppers into getting TWO ‘Free’ flu shots because it’s the ‘season’ and pneumonia, well…you might get it.  Is it really the ‘season’? If so, why were we pushed to get flu shots all summer long? Is anything ever really ‘free’? The fear, paranoia, and pressure blinds us to how we even really feel.  Stop, listen to yourself. Sometimes you are the real professional when it comes to yourself.

If you’d like to hear more of my thoughts and how to escape the programming and conditioning we live under, my book Toxic Rainbows is available on Amazon.

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They Are Sooo Unhappy

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It seems that I can’t get out of the house without experiencing the pain of others.  I deleted my Facebook account last year to escape the pain and noise of the echo chamber that it is, but even walking into public, people appear beat-up and defeated.

Only yesterday I made the mistake of allowing an acquaintance’s Instagram post interfere with my thoughts and her update haunted me all day. The post was a photo of the sky, a beautiful clear, blue sky with a caption that read, “I am just about infuriated at how beautiful today is.” One more in a continuous stream of angry posts.  I had to comment, “Don’t almost be mad.”  It’s as if people require anguish in their lives and when even nature does not comply, they rebel and insist on locating that elusive misery.

 

A few hours later I ran into an old friend and somehow the subject came around to him saying, “Everyone is unhappy.”.  I didn’t know if he was being very honest or trying to make a joke, so I asked him to clarify and he said, “Yeah…everyone is unhappy including myself.” All I could think of was, “Not him too!”.

Each day gives me more purpose and makes me feel more dedicated to turning people around. Making them remember or to see through the fog of the delusion that it doesn’t have to be as miserable as they seem to be experiencing.

My book will be release in October 2018 and I’m very much looking forward for those in need to discover it and start to change their lives for the better. Let’s be done with this misery!

Look for Toxic Rainbows: Surviving and Thriving in the New Babylon on Amazon soon. Stat tuned.

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Are We Poisoning Ourselves With ‘Goodness’?

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I like to think that most people are genuinely caring individuals who strive for fairness and encourage love of their fellow man. Deep down, I think we all want that, but sometimes it drives us to imbalance.  We start to see injustice wherever we look and choose not to see when things are actually going well for us. Our good intentions of ‘righting a wrong’ by becoming angry or emotional simply creates more of the negative vibration we seek to eliminate.

Everything Vibrates. Vibrational energy works in a two-fold way. It is put out and attracts more of a similar type energy (good or bad), it builds on the expended energy and returns to the source with more than it started out with. So if you put positive out, you get more in return. This holds true with whatever type of energy expressed by either your thoughts or actions.

I did a reading yesterday that exemplified this idea.

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DSC03636The Reading: When we become so blinded by doing what we think is ‘right’ that we go out of our way to hurt, silence or destroy the ability for others to express themselves, we are treading in a deeply delusional space.

We celebrate and feel a sense of victory when we are with like minded participants, but the victory will not be authentic until you walk with your perceived enemy. When that is done you will both have a better understanding and respect for one another that will transcend bitterness, anger and jealousy.  If we avoid confronting issues that put our belief systems in jeopardy, we will be like the Fool who had his chance at spiritual growth, but ignored the opportunity and fell to his doom.

Our short lived victories will ring hollow and in the end we will see that our emotions and denial of nature have left us with nowhere left to go. We’ve reached a dead end that can only be transformed when we go back, understand the lunacy of our behavior, take the hand of our enemy and walk together.

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Self Transformation Can Get Ugly


TRIGGEREDI have become fascinated by horror movies where people are transformed into monsters. The idea that a poison takes over or a contamination turns someone into a fiendish creature is an interesting theme for a movie, but the reality is that we are doing it to ourselves quite openly all the time.

Triggered. Child tantrums have made way for adult meltdowns and seriously low karmic behavior goes from the periodic to standard practice. We use labels and fear to justify our behavior, opt for selective outrage and express intolerance for anyone who refuses to take part in our rage.

Self Transformation and goals of attaining greater consciousness and atunement with Divine energy requires the type of self reflection and contemplation that results in clarity.  Without clarity and awareness, we can’t see or experience our actual reality and our emotions blind us and prevent us from experiencing equilibrium and happiness.

Maintaining balance in a world that appears designed to throw us off our game is not always easy even when we are fully aware of our triggers. Instinctively we yearn for balance. Tension, hostility, doubt, uncertainty, fear…all these things are byproducts of the misery brought on by a lack of balance.

It is a Law of Nature that if you express hatred and anger, that’s what you get more of in your life. It will even express itself in the way you look. We all owe it to ourselves to calm the beast within and understand that the real monsters are not exterior to us.

The image here is from the 80s horror film The Beast Within and the title should  be reflected on by anyone who struggles with responsibility and blame.

Your personal growth and self-transformation is going to take more than repeating a few inspirational quotes and jumping on a culty New Age bandwagon. It might get ugly before the rainbows and unicorns start appearing. But never fear, you are not alone.

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What We Can Learn From Limahl

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This just goes to show that you never know where you might find words of wisdom and powerful things to reflect on that will help your spiritual growth and transformation. It never occurred to me to turn to 80s pop star Limahl of Kajagoogoo to contemplate one of the problems crippling so many people today–prescription drug use.

Prescribing meds to ‘fix’ our problems is a pet peeve of mine, particularly since we have seen them prescribed more frequently and at younger and younger ages. It’s disturbing to think that being on meds has become as normal as taking Vitamin C.  It’s become a rite of passage and parents seem not to hesitate in starting their kids on a lifetime of pain and suffering caused by meds that inhibit the body’s natural functions.

They dull our senses, they debilitate our ability to think and reason and every single one of them provide a host of side effects that we didn’t have before we started taking the meds to begin with.

In the song Too Shy, Limahl sings,

Modern medicine falls short of your complaints, try a little harder.
Moving in circles, won’t you dilate. Ooh, Baby try.

In these lyrics Limahl teaches us that we are a bunch of whiney babies and that prescription drugs will never solve our problems. We need to try harder.

He continues by telling us that we are not learning from our problems, only going in circles as if one foot is nailed to the floor. We need to expand our thinking and reach deeper, not obscure our ability to think by the use of meds. Then he says “Ooh, Baby try.” So you know he’s sincere.

Just a bit of levity here, but it’s not that I don’t believe it or think it’s a good message. Thanks, Limahl!

[Disclaimer and urge you to consult a doctor or get a second opinion before you decide to get off your meds or before you start to take them. Give your body a fighting chance, there are enough zombies in this world.]

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