Fear and Self Loathing

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Fear is the driving force that inspires most things in our lives.
Fear is so powerful that it controls almost all the things that we do and the ways in which we think. It’s incredible to imagine that something with so much power to inspire is the kryptonite that cripples us.

Fear is the thing that prevents us from knowing our truth. It allows us to cling to old ideas and beliefs in order to maintain a paradigm that does not serve us, but keeps us comfortably numb. This fear and self-denial becomes the cornerstone of a life built on misrepresentation. Avoidance by fear obscures pathways that lead to overcoming pain and suffering —the same suffering that we choose to believe doesn’t exist.

Fear is at the core of our issues relating to denial, bullying, and self-loathing. It is usually the reason why we choose blame over trying to understand why we react in the ways that we do. The subconscious reason for blame is a fear in confronting our own failings and having to admit self-deception. We desperately avoid situations that will lead to the discovery that we are the cause of our own suffering—this is the root of fear.

For more insights and pathways that lead to a greater understanding of self, look for my book Toxic Rainbows.

About the photo: The photo memes I create address topics of communication breakdown and other concepts which are deeply tied to our post-internet lives.  These and other issues are discussed at  more length in my book.  More ideas and memes can be seen on my Instagram account.

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Intolerance is Hot Right Now

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There’s a person I know, someone who I’ve admired for years–creative, passionate about life, engaging, fun, a joy.  But then I realized that nearly every moment she shares on social media has been of outrage and venomous hatred. It’s gone so far that she has even called for the death of people she does not agree with.

I’ve made a point of staying away from the mind-controlling echo chamber of thee main culprit of social media conditioning, an entity whose name I won’t mention, but the ferocity and number of people who’ve been effected by the programming seeps through nonetheless.

It’s this reactionary behavior and single-minded focus of what troubles some of us that was an inspiration for writing my book Toxic Rainbows. I found myself asking myself, How can I help? What can I do? How can I reach someone without triggering them or being shouted over? Writing the book was no different than writing a letter to someone in the hopes that you could express all of your thoughts and feelings without getting  interrupted. Now our hope is that the letters we write are read!

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There are factors at work that are creating a much more polarized atmosphere than we would be experiencing if things played out naturally, without influences hammering away at us. Polarity exists, it’s never not been part of the world in which we live. There are things that occur, beliefs that people have and even fashion or styles that is just ‘not you’. But when we give our focus to what it is we don’t want in our lives or what we don’t believe in, we are actually empowering what we push against.

If you hate facial hair, nose rings or red hats, chances are you see those things ALL THE TIME and bring them more into your experience than if you would have just put your attention elsewhere.

But our problems right now lie, a bit outside of our polar differences in belief. It’s in our UNDERSTANDING and how we came to believe what we do.  Our intolerance and inability to reason did not just happen overnight. It has been a long, slow development that has been inflicted upon us.  We need to understand ourselves, not what outside influences tell us about who we are because if we don’t watch out, we will suddenly be telling our friends that we wish they’d die.

If these ideas resonate, I encourage you to read my book, Toxic Rainbows. I also encourage dialogue and questions.

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Is Halloween the Only Day for Honesty?

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Today is Halloween and it occurred to me that it is the one day where people honestly present themselves as something that they are not. Take a second to grasp this.  The rest of the year, we present ourselves how we want other people to perceive us. It’s really a costume party all year long with October 31st as the day designated where we can admit we’re in costume.

We style ourselves to speak for us. We dye our hair in ‘progressive’ colors so that it creates a perception. We wear red hats to let people know we are just like they are. We cover our faces at protests so other like-minded citizens can fall-in with us.  We wear goth finery and symbolic jewelry to clue in other occultists… I could go on.

Think of how much time we spend presenting an idea of who we are, all the while avoiding the real work of discovering who that person is for ourselves. In my book, Toxic Rainbows, I repeat over and over how important honesty is in self-transformation.  It’s one of the hardest things we face in life. We know that uncovering and addressing hidden pains and roadblocks is one of the most painful things we can do, thus making it one of the easiest things to avoid.

Now is the time to face your truth. Wipe the make-up off your face, quit looking for your ‘perfect angle’ and understand that the real you is not something that is there for everyone to gawk at. When you discover that inner spark, and many of you know what I’m talking about, you will know that my words are true and that what matters is understaning yourself which will lead to your PURPOSE.

Let’s take this day and commit to honesty and to digging deeper within ourselves to discover what truth really is.

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Embrace Your Inner Dodo Bird

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I often think about identity, persona and how we see ourselves. In my book Toxic Rainbows, I talk about how I felt early on that I was different, not the fact that I was a minority, but that my thinking was not quite the same as most and I saw that the brilliance in our differences and how standing out from the crowd was not a bad thing. But accepting our uniqueness is sometimes a hard thing to appreciate in a world where people are bullied and shamed for being true to themselves or even ridiculed for their physical differences.

Like most people, I suffered through bouts of insecurity and anxiety, much of which was rooted to my feelings of not having the ‘right’ experiences or background. I learned that pressures imposed by society can make us forget who we are and literally obliterate the love that we should have for ourselves.

We do ourselves a huge disservice when we allow ourselves to become victims to the cruelties of the deeply insecure people out there who try to make us look bad or to feel bad about ourselves.

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Years ago I was asked the oft asked question, “What is your spirit animal?” I responded immediately, ‘The Ostrich”.

The ostrich is awkward and can’t fly, but it runs incredibly fast. It’s legs are powerful and can kick the crap out of the haters. It’s feathers may be useless for flight, but they are beautiful and luxurious. The ostrich stands out on its own as being remarkably unique in the bird family and as an animal in general and like all creatures, it succeeds purely on being itself.

Birds of Envy. If we were to embrace our inner ostrich, dodo bird or platypus, we would be positioning ourselves as strong, untouchable individuals. I don’t mean that you should go out and dye your hair blue, because that doesn’t cut it anymore. I mean..BE YOU. Warts and all, you are meant to shine for what you have going on in your mind and in your heart. There is no one like you and that’s something everyone can be grateful for.

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BOOK RELEASE! Toxic Rainbows out now!

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I’m very happy to announce the release of my first book, Toxic Rainbows.

I have so many feelings and thoughts associated with what I’ve written that I struggle with even giving it an elevator pitch that does it justice.  It’s philosophical, psychological, spiritual, autobiographical–it’s a manual for gaining clarity in a world that is designed to distract and distort perception.

As I wrote, I realized that I had been keeping mental notes my whole life on what I had been learning, observing and understanding about myself and human nature. The pain and confusion I saw around me compelled me to further understand why so many were in a delusional loop of cognitive dissonance and selective outrage. What had happened?

For years I had been slowly moving toward a life of spirit and nature and attempting to understand the meaning of faith.  But when my life dramatically cracked open and I was faced with a life and death situation, everything I had questioned and wondered about was revealed to me and I was given all the answers I sought.

The awakening I experienced allowed me to see my past, future and the world around me with much more clarity and I finally understood the meaning and feelings of faith.

Toxic Rainbows is available on Amazon.

For Media Inquiries: librocioknows@gmail.com

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Is More Not Enough? What’s Missing? – Book Excerpt

My book, TOXIC RAINBOWS will release this Fall as an ebook.  Enjoy this excerpt.

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We are living in a time of relative abundance, excess and opportunity, yet we continue to feel deprived and left wanting for more.  What is it that’s missing? Can it be satisfied by shopping, having another child, redecorating?

This empty feeling and searching for substance is brilliantly depicted in Orson Welles’ classic film Citizen Kane and was more recently explored in Ridley Scott’s All The Money In The World.  We see in these film characters a desperation to possess an unnamable something.  Similarly, we sense a feeling of lack, but don’t know where it’s coming from or know what to fill it with.

We often falsely base success and privilege on material gains.  We wrongly assume that if someone is driving an expensive car and lives in the most posh part of town that he is happy and ‘has it all’. But what we will come to better understand and what you may already know or sense is that the ‘All’ can’t be bought, yet the ‘All’ that we desire and yearn for is not unobtainable.

Accessing the ‘All’ defies status, culture and race.  The ‘All’, the thing that brings clarity, vision, and empathy is the same thing that creates fulfillment and provides the missing piece of the puzzle we are all in search of.

Different cultures and religions both ancient and contemporary have referred to this force within us and it’s concepts may not be so far removed from our understanding as we might think.

Spirit Energy. Life Force. Soul Consciousness. Quintessence.  Intuition. Whatever you want to call it and however it’s been referred to throughout the ages, it is here to stay and it’s still just as powerful as it’s ever been.

Imagine having a key that has the potential to open any door imaginable.  A key that when used eliminates negative feelings and gives meaning to your life.  The spark of spirit energy within each of us is that key.

This book is a roadmap that will illustrate how paths taken and systems of belief can lead to success and happiness or abject failure.  I’ve been on both sides.

Follow my blog and Instagram for updates on the book release.

Jim

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Toxic Rainbows – Fall 2018 Release

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Toxic Rainbows coming in Fall 2018.

Toxic Rainbows is a book I had no intention of writing, but it came out of necessity.  It wrote itself after a few years of self-reflection and contemplation of how as a society we are to function spiritually in a world where spiritual transformation plateaus with a hollow meme or a proficiency at yoga.

I am a Generation X writer with the perspective of having experienced life pre- and post-internet. The remarkable experience for some of us was watching life unfold as a veil of delusion was constructed around us. We have the capacity for second sight because we can see the realities of two worlds, the truth and a manufactured delusion.

The delusion, often referred to as The Matrix, suffocated, obscured and redefined words and reality as we knew them. An ever creeping and pervasive artificiality and disconnection was my inspiration in seeking answers to life’s most enduring questions which led to my studying works of an esoteric nature, psychology, philosophy and religion.

Toxic Rainbows is based on my experience of growing up outside of a system we are now mired in, entering into it and finally extricating myself from it by understanding how I became a part of the system and how we had become enslaved by it.

Toxic Rainbows is a book about awareness and self discovery that offers revelations and sometimes unpleasant truth that pertains to everyone. It is a manual for escape and a guide for obtainng the joy and freedoms that are missing from so many of our lives. It’s an alternate route to a much better Oz, a place where true enlightenment can be obtained without fear of falling victim to the falseness that surrounds us or the trappings of the faux New Age.

Follow my blog for excerpts and news on the book release. I will also be posting updates to Instagram.

Toxic Rainbows, ebook releasing in Fall 2018.

Jim Lucio

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The True Way To Accessing Your Natural Ability and Potential

Last night before I turned out my light, I contemplated the idea of potential and natural ability. What is it that drives us? What are the things that we gravitate to that are inspired by our own desires and not of the influences forced upon us? How do we truly flourish when we feel others should come before us? Or if we take credit for something we didn’t actually do or express a thought that didn’t come from our own mind?

How DO we access our true potential without giving in to pressures or taking an easy way out to obtain limited or imagined success? By this I mean, when we limit our potential by following a dream that is not our own or when we go along with ‘the plan’ because we don’t want to rock the boat–that is, when we function only as a contributor to someone else’s potential and success and not our own. It may feel good to be part of the ‘team’, but as individual creators it does not serve us.

With these thoughts in mind, I did a reading to gain more clarity and answers for people who may be struggling with this issue. Firstly, we need to understand ourselves and know precisely what it is we desire to accomplish. What actions need to be taken to reach our full potential?

The cards offered a remarkable response.

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To access our natural ability and harness our true potential, we need to think like The Hanged Man.

The Hanged Man tells us that there is an inner peace, serenity and happiness in being misunderstood. He is content in knowing that he is furthering his own agenda and spiritual growth by following what his heart tells him.

The Hanged Man is not distressed by how others perceive him. Though he may be ridiculed, shunned, shamed and ostricized, he does not allow himself to be swayed or pressured out of his own beliefs. He is okay being the butt of a joke because he knows he is doing what is right for himself whether others understand him or not.

The Hanged Man’s peace comes from being true, sincere and authentic.

Once we can appreciate the serenity that comes with sometimes being misunderstood, wisdom will come from the experience that is obtained by cutting our cords of attachment to things that no longer serve us.

Temperance is about balancing what is in our hearts and our minds.  We can obtain equilibrium by giving to others, but we need to give to ourselves as well to maintain balance.

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Most telling about this reading is the appearance of the three cards above. They are the only three cards in the entire deck that have someone turned fully around and walking away. These three are in step and actively leaving the scene.

If we are to allow our nature to blossom and tap into our full potential, we must not allow the the words of others to stop us. We can’t always expect others to help us in our endeavors and we can’t expect even loved ones to side with us.

DSC03791We need to walk away from people and situations that are not in alignment with our desires. We have to know that the extra work, dissenting voices and even times of loneliness are all contributing to what is best for us. It gives us strength, fortitude and eventually, the calm of The Hanged Man.

And in the end, we don’t even need to say “I told you so.” because people will know who was correct all along.

— Librocio Knows

 

 

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The Digital Generation’s Answer to Avoiding Problems

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How far do you think people will go to avoid their problems?

Transhumanism is the ultimate in ‘convenience’. It aims to make life easier, better and more efficient. Convincing the public of anything that works against their nature and  that’s detrimental to their existence or well-being has often been presented in opposite terms in order to gain trust.

Awareness to the fact that inversion is a hallmark of the Matrix, makes it easier to see that transhumanism is invasive and actually an enemy of human nature and biology. Inversion of reality aside, it used to puzzle me as to why and how so many people embraced transhumanist concepts so carelessly and thoughtlessly, accepting them without argument as if it were natural evolution or true nature.

Our brains are becoming atrophied because of services that provide us with answers offered to us by robotic voices. Commercials teach us to treat them as friends and family, blurring the line for those who, as children, considered Teddy Ruxpin a confidant and support system. One commercial goes a step further by enforcing the stupidity of humans who use the product and even demonstrates that it will refuse certain things that are asked of it, in this case, country music. We are being conditioned to feel that these services are an improvement over the human mind which is an abomination of thought and can never be true.

We use search engines to give us the answers that appeal to their algorithms all the while, our world view dwindles and we forget what it’s like to think and discover on our own. This behavior is plain to see, but it occurred to me that these devices and human-like anamatronics are not here to assist us, but to destroy our connectivity to one another. They prey on our weaknesses and fears of failure and rejection.

Our interpersonal relationships are crumbling and our modes of communication fail us. We respond to life from a weakened emotional state, our relationships falter and we distance ourselves further from eachother, connecting only through emoji-filled texts and we more easily embrace the unreality of robotics and transhumanism.

This advancement in technology encourages human failure. It allows us to go elsewhere for connectivity when we do not want to do the work involved in nurturing real relationships. It becomes the panacea to our natural anxieties, destroying human emotion in the process of ‘comforting’ us.

Who needs real people when robot sex brothels are becoming all the rage? The Barbie Doll as an ideal has led to sex dolls which begs the question, how can humans compete with something that won’t ask how you’re feeling? We will no longer have to confront our real emotions and grow spiritually. All we need is a synthetic android and a touch-screen.

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If there’s one thing I’ve learned over the years, it’s that people will do almost anything to avoid dealing with their problems. Looking through that lens it is easy to see how a troubled, digital generation will accept transhumanism and live-in sex dolls if only to avoid having to face their own human responsibilities in order to continue fabricating lives deeply woven into the Matrix.

Be aware. Save your children. Exit the Matrix.

The core of my work is in awakening people to the programming and conditioning that enfeebles our minds and makes us operate purely through our subconscious and triggered emotions.  Contact me for more information.

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Self Transformation Can Get Ugly


TRIGGEREDI have become fascinated by horror movies where people are transformed into monsters. The idea that a poison takes over or a contamination turns someone into a fiendish creature is an interesting theme for a movie, but the reality is that we are doing it to ourselves quite openly all the time.

Triggered. Child tantrums have made way for adult meltdowns and seriously low karmic behavior goes from the periodic to standard practice. We use labels and fear to justify our behavior, opt for selective outrage and express intolerance for anyone who refuses to take part in our rage.

Self Transformation and goals of attaining greater consciousness and atunement with Divine energy requires the type of self reflection and contemplation that results in clarity.  Without clarity and awareness, we can’t see or experience our actual reality and our emotions blind us and prevent us from experiencing equilibrium and happiness.

Maintaining balance in a world that appears designed to throw us off our game is not always easy even when we are fully aware of our triggers. Instinctively we yearn for balance. Tension, hostility, doubt, uncertainty, fear…all these things are byproducts of the misery brought on by a lack of balance.

It is a Law of Nature that if you express hatred and anger, that’s what you get more of in your life. It will even express itself in the way you look. We all owe it to ourselves to calm the beast within and understand that the real monsters are not exterior to us.

The image here is from the 80s horror film The Beast Within and the title should  be reflected on by anyone who struggles with responsibility and blame.

Your personal growth and self-transformation is going to take more than repeating a few inspirational quotes and jumping on a culty New Age bandwagon. It might get ugly before the rainbows and unicorns start appearing. But never fear, you are not alone.

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