Fear and Self Loathing

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Fear is the driving force that inspires most things in our lives.
Fear is so powerful that it controls almost all the things that we do and the ways in which we think. It’s incredible to imagine that something with so much power to inspire is the kryptonite that cripples us.

Fear is the thing that prevents us from knowing our truth. It allows us to cling to old ideas and beliefs in order to maintain a paradigm that does not serve us, but keeps us comfortably numb. This fear and self-denial becomes the cornerstone of a life built on misrepresentation. Avoidance by fear obscures pathways that lead to overcoming pain and suffering —the same suffering that we choose to believe doesn’t exist.

Fear is at the core of our issues relating to denial, bullying, and self-loathing. It is usually the reason why we choose blame over trying to understand why we react in the ways that we do. The subconscious reason for blame is a fear in confronting our own failings and having to admit self-deception. We desperately avoid situations that will lead to the discovery that we are the cause of our own suffering—this is the root of fear.

For more insights and pathways that lead to a greater understanding of self, look for my book Toxic Rainbows.

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Is Halloween the Only Day for Honesty?

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Today is Halloween and it occurred to me that it is the one day where people honestly present themselves as something that they are not. Take a second to grasp this.  The rest of the year, we present ourselves how we want other people to perceive us. It’s really a costume party all year long with October 31st as the day designated where we can admit we’re in costume.

We style ourselves to speak for us. We dye our hair in ‘progressive’ colors so that it creates a perception. We wear red hats to let people know we are just like they are. We cover our faces at protests so other like-minded citizens can fall-in with us.  We wear goth finery and symbolic jewelry to clue in other occultists… I could go on.

Think of how much time we spend presenting an idea of who we are, all the while avoiding the real work of discovering who that person is for ourselves. In my book, Toxic Rainbows, I repeat over and over how important honesty is in self-transformation.  It’s one of the hardest things we face in life. We know that uncovering and addressing hidden pains and roadblocks is one of the most painful things we can do, thus making it one of the easiest things to avoid.

Now is the time to face your truth. Wipe the make-up off your face, quit looking for your ‘perfect angle’ and understand that the real you is not something that is there for everyone to gawk at. When you discover that inner spark, and many of you know what I’m talking about, you will know that my words are true and that what matters is understaning yourself which will lead to your PURPOSE.

Let’s take this day and commit to honesty and to digging deeper within ourselves to discover what truth really is.

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Embrace Your Inner Dodo Bird

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I often think about identity, persona and how we see ourselves. In my book Toxic Rainbows, I talk about how I felt early on that I was different, not the fact that I was a minority, but that my thinking was not quite the same as most and I saw that the brilliance in our differences and how standing out from the crowd was not a bad thing. But accepting our uniqueness is sometimes a hard thing to appreciate in a world where people are bullied and shamed for being true to themselves or even ridiculed for their physical differences.

Like most people, I suffered through bouts of insecurity and anxiety, much of which was rooted to my feelings of not having the ‘right’ experiences or background. I learned that pressures imposed by society can make us forget who we are and literally obliterate the love that we should have for ourselves.

We do ourselves a huge disservice when we allow ourselves to become victims to the cruelties of the deeply insecure people out there who try to make us look bad or to feel bad about ourselves.

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Years ago I was asked the oft asked question, “What is your spirit animal?” I responded immediately, ‘The Ostrich”.

The ostrich is awkward and can’t fly, but it runs incredibly fast. It’s legs are powerful and can kick the crap out of the haters. It’s feathers may be useless for flight, but they are beautiful and luxurious. The ostrich stands out on its own as being remarkably unique in the bird family and as an animal in general and like all creatures, it succeeds purely on being itself.

Birds of Envy. If we were to embrace our inner ostrich, dodo bird or platypus, we would be positioning ourselves as strong, untouchable individuals. I don’t mean that you should go out and dye your hair blue, because that doesn’t cut it anymore. I mean..BE YOU. Warts and all, you are meant to shine for what you have going on in your mind and in your heart. There is no one like you and that’s something everyone can be grateful for.

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The True Way To Accessing Your Natural Ability and Potential

Last night before I turned out my light, I contemplated the idea of potential and natural ability. What is it that drives us? What are the things that we gravitate to that are inspired by our own desires and not of the influences forced upon us? How do we truly flourish when we feel others should come before us? Or if we take credit for something we didn’t actually do or express a thought that didn’t come from our own mind?

How DO we access our true potential without giving in to pressures or taking an easy way out to obtain limited or imagined success? By this I mean, when we limit our potential by following a dream that is not our own or when we go along with ‘the plan’ because we don’t want to rock the boat–that is, when we function only as a contributor to someone else’s potential and success and not our own. It may feel good to be part of the ‘team’, but as individual creators it does not serve us.

With these thoughts in mind, I did a reading to gain more clarity and answers for people who may be struggling with this issue. Firstly, we need to understand ourselves and know precisely what it is we desire to accomplish. What actions need to be taken to reach our full potential?

The cards offered a remarkable response.

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To access our natural ability and harness our true potential, we need to think like The Hanged Man.

The Hanged Man tells us that there is an inner peace, serenity and happiness in being misunderstood. He is content in knowing that he is furthering his own agenda and spiritual growth by following what his heart tells him.

The Hanged Man is not distressed by how others perceive him. Though he may be ridiculed, shunned, shamed and ostricized, he does not allow himself to be swayed or pressured out of his own beliefs. He is okay being the butt of a joke because he knows he is doing what is right for himself whether others understand him or not.

The Hanged Man’s peace comes from being true, sincere and authentic.

Once we can appreciate the serenity that comes with sometimes being misunderstood, wisdom will come from the experience that is obtained by cutting our cords of attachment to things that no longer serve us.

Temperance is about balancing what is in our hearts and our minds.  We can obtain equilibrium by giving to others, but we need to give to ourselves as well to maintain balance.

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Most telling about this reading is the appearance of the three cards above. They are the only three cards in the entire deck that have someone turned fully around and walking away. These three are in step and actively leaving the scene.

If we are to allow our nature to blossom and tap into our full potential, we must not allow the the words of others to stop us. We can’t always expect others to help us in our endeavors and we can’t expect even loved ones to side with us.

DSC03791We need to walk away from people and situations that are not in alignment with our desires. We have to know that the extra work, dissenting voices and even times of loneliness are all contributing to what is best for us. It gives us strength, fortitude and eventually, the calm of The Hanged Man.

And in the end, we don’t even need to say “I told you so.” because people will know who was correct all along.

— Librocio Knows

 

 

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Earth Energy and What My Dog Taught Me

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There’s a bumber sticker on a car I see all the time that says, “Be The Person Your Dog Sees You As”. I love that because it reminds us that our pets don’t judge us and want only to love us and to experience the feeling of love in return. They are all about the win-win situation!

Our sweet Boston Terrier Chuy inspires the idea for a different bumber sticker that should read, “Be The Person That Your Dog Is”!  The word ‘dog’ has been used to denigrate people for ages, but like so many things in our world today it is a horrible inversion of truth. People shouldn’t refer to others as dogs, but if they do, they’re really only paying their enemy a compliment.  I am a better person because of my dogs and I am still learning from them.  Love, compassion, patience, natural intelligence…they have so much to teach us.

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The most recent lesson Chuy has taught and reminded me of is the importance of our connection to Earth.

I get Chuy out for a walk around the neighborhood once or twice a day and a priority for him is to find grass to roll around in. It’s something he does with passion and exudes a pure joy that I never get tired of watching. After some thought I realized that he was connecting to the healing powers of the earth. His playful  rolling went beyond having fun, I sensed that he was charging up just like we do when we ground ourselves before meditation!

This morning we went out to the park and enjoyed a great expanse of grass where he ran with joy and rolled and rolled and rolled…soaking up all that incredible energy from the earth and literally bathed in the morning dew.

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I was not one to let a good opportunity go to waste and did just as this wise pup did and  ran along side him and soaked up the potent energy of earth myself.

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We can’t forget or take for granted the gifts around us and the powers that come from the earth that heal us, ground us and get us more connected to consciousness.  It’s time to free yourself of distractions, technology, and opinions. Find a quiet place, feel the natural energies around you, connect to it. Be conscious of the fact that you are a part of this divine force. Even if it’s just a small corner in your yard, it’s time to do something. Start small, know you are connected and build on that.

As a seeker of knowledge and understanding, I’ve come a long way and it’s been a long road. In the past I have attempted opening the eyes of others through various means, but have been met only with resistence. Since then I’ve learned that change can only come when we want it to. We can get guidance and have support, but that decision can not come from arm-twisting or pressure from anyone, it has to come from ourselves.

It is a lifetime’s work, but as you walk this path, each day gives you a sense of accomplishment that the material world can not hold a candle to. It’s time to make a conscious decision to remove yourself from the things in life that work against your nature.

If you have a dog, follow their lead.  If you have questions, drop me an email.

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