If you’ve been following along here or Instagram, you are aware of my Photos From The Matrix project. For the past six months I’ve been photographing myself in grocery stores and other places of business to assist me in elaborating on the idea of seperation from nature, immersion in the artificial and the importance we put on our digital selves. I think some of you just thought I enjoyed standing motionless in grocery stores!
These self-portraits allow me to create a glitch in the system. It is how I can pop a bubble of illusion simply by blending into it instead of imagining that I am separate from it. It’s like a sudden penetrating heat that cracks ice or pops a kernel of corn and turns it into something soft and fluffy. It’s about seeing patterns and creating new ones.
I find myself expressing these things because this is how I feel, this is what I see and this is the discomfort I experience when I am increasingly encroached upon by the unnatural. If there is a takeaway to all of this it’s this, If I can see and feel something that is corroding my sensibilities, obscuring my individual light of creativity, and discouraging personal growth–then everyone can. If you think you can’t you have to ask yourself why?
This is one way that I have taken a personal stand against certain forces and systems that I do not believe in or that I don’t want to take part in. It has helped to keep me thinking as an individual and to live life in a way where I am able to give back honestly and of myself. It reminds me of what matters, what’s good for me and how we need to make an effort to create things of beauty and to reject what makes us less than what we are.
How do YOU push back against a system that would rather suppress your individual voice and creativity? Getting to the core of our creative being is not always easy. My book Toxic Rainbows explains how I did it and offers a pathwork that opens the doors of possibility to anyone ready to do the work involved.
Fear is the driving force that inspires most things in our lives. Fear is so powerful that it controls almost all the things that we do and the ways in which we think. It’s incredible to imagine that something with so much power to inspire is the kryptonite that cripples us.
Fear is the thing that prevents us from knowing our truth. It allows us to cling to old ideas and beliefs in order to maintain a paradigm that does not serve us, but keeps us comfortably numb. This fear and self-denial becomes the cornerstone of a life built on misrepresentation. Avoidance by fear obscures pathways that lead to overcoming pain and suffering —the same suffering that we choose to believe doesn’t exist.
Fear is at the core of our issues relating to denial, bullying, and self-loathing. It is usually the reason why we choose blame over trying to understand why we react in the ways that we do. The subconscious reason for blame is a fear in confronting our own failings and having to admit self-deception. We desperately avoid situations that will lead to the discovery that we are the cause of our own suffering—this is the root of fear.
For more insights and pathways that lead to a greater understanding of self, look for my book Toxic Rainbows.
About the photo: The photo memes I create address topics of communication breakdown and other concepts which are deeply tied to our post-internet lives. These and other issues are discussed at more length in my book. More ideas and memes can be seen on my Instagram account.
It’s interestng that a ‘new’ study conducted by psychologists at the University of Pennsylvania determined that use of social media sites like (and particularly) Facebook causes …wait for it… depression. No surprise there, but I say this is ‘interesting’ only because studies like this seem to have been coming out for years making these claiims. I didn’t have to resort to another one to know first hand that social media is a big player in producing self doubt and loneliness, all I ever needed to do was get online and see it for myself.
The grasping, the vying for attention, the compulsive posting and commenting all screamed, “Look at me! Look at me!”. It doesn’t take a degree in psychology to understand what is going on and to see that people are suffering and appear more alienated each day.
In my book, Toxic Rainbows, I talk quite about the detrimental effects of social media and it’s influence on our behavior. In my opinion, it is one of the first things many of us need to overcome before we can start making improvements in our lives.
My request to you as that you THINK hard about how you use social media and figure out if it’s providing you with a sense of fulfillment and joy when you log on and/or off. Contemplating your use is only the start and I encourage you to read my book and delve deeper. You owe it to yourself.