Fear and Self Loathing

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Fear is the driving force that inspires most things in our lives.
Fear is so powerful that it controls almost all the things that we do and the ways in which we think. It’s incredible to imagine that something with so much power to inspire is the kryptonite that cripples us.

Fear is the thing that prevents us from knowing our truth. It allows us to cling to old ideas and beliefs in order to maintain a paradigm that does not serve us, but keeps us comfortably numb. This fear and self-denial becomes the cornerstone of a life built on misrepresentation. Avoidance by fear obscures pathways that lead to overcoming pain and suffering —the same suffering that we choose to believe doesn’t exist.

Fear is at the core of our issues relating to denial, bullying, and self-loathing. It is usually the reason why we choose blame over trying to understand why we react in the ways that we do. The subconscious reason for blame is a fear in confronting our own failings and having to admit self-deception. We desperately avoid situations that will lead to the discovery that we are the cause of our own suffering—this is the root of fear.

For more insights and pathways that lead to a greater understanding of self, look for my book Toxic Rainbows.

About the photo: The photo memes I create address topics of communication breakdown and other concepts which are deeply tied to our post-internet lives.  These and other issues are discussed at  more length in my book.  More ideas and memes can be seen on my Instagram account.

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Intolerance is Hot Right Now

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There’s a person I know, someone who I’ve admired for years–creative, passionate about life, engaging, fun, a joy.  But then I realized that nearly every moment she shares on social media has been of outrage and venomous hatred. It’s gone so far that she has even called for the death of people she does not agree with.

I’ve made a point of staying away from the mind-controlling echo chamber of thee main culprit of social media conditioning, an entity whose name I won’t mention, but the ferocity and number of people who’ve been effected by the programming seeps through nonetheless.

It’s this reactionary behavior and single-minded focus of what troubles some of us that was an inspiration for writing my book Toxic Rainbows. I found myself asking myself, How can I help? What can I do? How can I reach someone without triggering them or being shouted over? Writing the book was no different than writing a letter to someone in the hopes that you could express all of your thoughts and feelings without getting  interrupted. Now our hope is that the letters we write are read!

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There are factors at work that are creating a much more polarized atmosphere than we would be experiencing if things played out naturally, without influences hammering away at us. Polarity exists, it’s never not been part of the world in which we live. There are things that occur, beliefs that people have and even fashion or styles that is just ‘not you’. But when we give our focus to what it is we don’t want in our lives or what we don’t believe in, we are actually empowering what we push against.

If you hate facial hair, nose rings or red hats, chances are you see those things ALL THE TIME and bring them more into your experience than if you would have just put your attention elsewhere.

But our problems right now lie, a bit outside of our polar differences in belief. It’s in our UNDERSTANDING and how we came to believe what we do.  Our intolerance and inability to reason did not just happen overnight. It has been a long, slow development that has been inflicted upon us.  We need to understand ourselves, not what outside influences tell us about who we are because if we don’t watch out, we will suddenly be telling our friends that we wish they’d die.

If these ideas resonate, I encourage you to read my book, Toxic Rainbows. I also encourage dialogue and questions.

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Is Halloween the Only Day for Honesty?

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Today is Halloween and it occurred to me that it is the one day where people honestly present themselves as something that they are not. Take a second to grasp this.  The rest of the year, we present ourselves how we want other people to perceive us. It’s really a costume party all year long with October 31st as the day designated where we can admit we’re in costume.

We style ourselves to speak for us. We dye our hair in ‘progressive’ colors so that it creates a perception. We wear red hats to let people know we are just like they are. We cover our faces at protests so other like-minded citizens can fall-in with us.  We wear goth finery and symbolic jewelry to clue in other occultists… I could go on.

Think of how much time we spend presenting an idea of who we are, all the while avoiding the real work of discovering who that person is for ourselves. In my book, Toxic Rainbows, I repeat over and over how important honesty is in self-transformation.  It’s one of the hardest things we face in life. We know that uncovering and addressing hidden pains and roadblocks is one of the most painful things we can do, thus making it one of the easiest things to avoid.

Now is the time to face your truth. Wipe the make-up off your face, quit looking for your ‘perfect angle’ and understand that the real you is not something that is there for everyone to gawk at. When you discover that inner spark, and many of you know what I’m talking about, you will know that my words are true and that what matters is understaning yourself which will lead to your PURPOSE.

Let’s take this day and commit to honesty and to digging deeper within ourselves to discover what truth really is.

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Embrace Your Inner Dodo Bird

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I often think about identity, persona and how we see ourselves. In my book Toxic Rainbows, I talk about how I felt early on that I was different, not the fact that I was a minority, but that my thinking was not quite the same as most and I saw that the brilliance in our differences and how standing out from the crowd was not a bad thing. But accepting our uniqueness is sometimes a hard thing to appreciate in a world where people are bullied and shamed for being true to themselves or even ridiculed for their physical differences.

Like most people, I suffered through bouts of insecurity and anxiety, much of which was rooted to my feelings of not having the ‘right’ experiences or background. I learned that pressures imposed by society can make us forget who we are and literally obliterate the love that we should have for ourselves.

We do ourselves a huge disservice when we allow ourselves to become victims to the cruelties of the deeply insecure people out there who try to make us look bad or to feel bad about ourselves.

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Years ago I was asked the oft asked question, “What is your spirit animal?” I responded immediately, ‘The Ostrich”.

The ostrich is awkward and can’t fly, but it runs incredibly fast. It’s legs are powerful and can kick the crap out of the haters. It’s feathers may be useless for flight, but they are beautiful and luxurious. The ostrich stands out on its own as being remarkably unique in the bird family and as an animal in general and like all creatures, it succeeds purely on being itself.

Birds of Envy. If we were to embrace our inner ostrich, dodo bird or platypus, we would be positioning ourselves as strong, untouchable individuals. I don’t mean that you should go out and dye your hair blue, because that doesn’t cut it anymore. I mean..BE YOU. Warts and all, you are meant to shine for what you have going on in your mind and in your heart. There is no one like you and that’s something everyone can be grateful for.

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The True Way To Accessing Your Natural Ability and Potential

Last night before I turned out my light, I contemplated the idea of potential and natural ability. What is it that drives us? What are the things that we gravitate to that are inspired by our own desires and not of the influences forced upon us? How do we truly flourish when we feel others should come before us? Or if we take credit for something we didn’t actually do or express a thought that didn’t come from our own mind?

How DO we access our true potential without giving in to pressures or taking an easy way out to obtain limited or imagined success? By this I mean, when we limit our potential by following a dream that is not our own or when we go along with ‘the plan’ because we don’t want to rock the boat–that is, when we function only as a contributor to someone else’s potential and success and not our own. It may feel good to be part of the ‘team’, but as individual creators it does not serve us.

With these thoughts in mind, I did a reading to gain more clarity and answers for people who may be struggling with this issue. Firstly, we need to understand ourselves and know precisely what it is we desire to accomplish. What actions need to be taken to reach our full potential?

The cards offered a remarkable response.

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To access our natural ability and harness our true potential, we need to think like The Hanged Man.

The Hanged Man tells us that there is an inner peace, serenity and happiness in being misunderstood. He is content in knowing that he is furthering his own agenda and spiritual growth by following what his heart tells him.

The Hanged Man is not distressed by how others perceive him. Though he may be ridiculed, shunned, shamed and ostricized, he does not allow himself to be swayed or pressured out of his own beliefs. He is okay being the butt of a joke because he knows he is doing what is right for himself whether others understand him or not.

The Hanged Man’s peace comes from being true, sincere and authentic.

Once we can appreciate the serenity that comes with sometimes being misunderstood, wisdom will come from the experience that is obtained by cutting our cords of attachment to things that no longer serve us.

Temperance is about balancing what is in our hearts and our minds.  We can obtain equilibrium by giving to others, but we need to give to ourselves as well to maintain balance.

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Most telling about this reading is the appearance of the three cards above. They are the only three cards in the entire deck that have someone turned fully around and walking away. These three are in step and actively leaving the scene.

If we are to allow our nature to blossom and tap into our full potential, we must not allow the the words of others to stop us. We can’t always expect others to help us in our endeavors and we can’t expect even loved ones to side with us.

DSC03791We need to walk away from people and situations that are not in alignment with our desires. We have to know that the extra work, dissenting voices and even times of loneliness are all contributing to what is best for us. It gives us strength, fortitude and eventually, the calm of The Hanged Man.

And in the end, we don’t even need to say “I told you so.” because people will know who was correct all along.

— Librocio Knows

 

 

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Are We Poisoning Ourselves With ‘Goodness’?

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I like to think that most people are genuinely caring individuals who strive for fairness and encourage love of their fellow man. Deep down, I think we all want that, but sometimes it drives us to imbalance.  We start to see injustice wherever we look and choose not to see when things are actually going well for us. Our good intentions of ‘righting a wrong’ by becoming angry or emotional simply creates more of the negative vibration we seek to eliminate.

Everything Vibrates. Vibrational energy works in a two-fold way. It is put out and attracts more of a similar type energy (good or bad), it builds on the expended energy and returns to the source with more than it started out with. So if you put positive out, you get more in return. This holds true with whatever type of energy expressed by either your thoughts or actions.

I did a reading yesterday that exemplified this idea.

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DSC03636The Reading: When we become so blinded by doing what we think is ‘right’ that we go out of our way to hurt, silence or destroy the ability for others to express themselves, we are treading in a deeply delusional space.

We celebrate and feel a sense of victory when we are with like minded participants, but the victory will not be authentic until you walk with your perceived enemy. When that is done you will both have a better understanding and respect for one another that will transcend bitterness, anger and jealousy.  If we avoid confronting issues that put our belief systems in jeopardy, we will be like the Fool who had his chance at spiritual growth, but ignored the opportunity and fell to his doom.

Our short lived victories will ring hollow and in the end we will see that our emotions and denial of nature have left us with nowhere left to go. We’ve reached a dead end that can only be transformed when we go back, understand the lunacy of our behavior, take the hand of our enemy and walk together.

-LIBROCIO KNOWS

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Tech Devices: Our Self-Imposed Slavery

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Modern day slavery exists and our captors care nothing of our race, gender, social or economic background. They are unmoved and non-biased. This is something I think about quite a bit and it doesn’t seem like one day can go by when I feel the screws tightening.

DSC03574 (1)Today in came in the form of an article about St. Louis University installing surveillance devices, 2,300 of them, into every dorm room for this coming semester. The devices, are of course marketed as ‘assistance’ tools that answer questions about the campus. Just like everything that is bad for us, we accept it because they’re ‘cool’ or we’re programmed into believing we ‘need’ them and they’ll ‘protect’ us. Eventually we don’t even notice they’re there because we never said “No.”.

These devices, naturally, are supplied by Am_zon and are Al_xa-enabled Ec_o Dots.  They claim that ‘no personal data is stored’, but they’ve had problems with these devices storing and using the data for advertising purposes in the past. And didn’t we just recently watch as Mark Zuckerberg purgered himself in front of the Senate’s Commerce and Judiciary committees–or at the very least deny things he was fully aware of?

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I don’t like to bring up these kind of things, but this is what is being put in place to destroy our souls and take us further from understanding our purpose. It atrophies our minds and gives us no reason to think for ourselves. This is the enslavement that so many of us accept as normal or choose to believe that it doesn’t affect us.

Break the chains, disconnect from your devices, unplug, stop the streaming programming…or at least start paying attention to how much you rely on technology to do the thinking for you. Save your temple. Refuse to be the product.

Contact me for a personal, in-depth tarot card reading. Let me help you escape the Matrix and illuminate the soul within.

-Librocio Knows.

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Intuitive Counseling – Spiritual Guidance and Assistance Is Yours.

spiritualGuidanceTarotAs a claircognitive individual and practitioner of the ancient art of tarot, I believe I have been called on by a higher power to offer guidance and to assist those in need through the cards and use of my intuitive ability.

As an Intuitive Counselor, my personal intention is to awaken something dormant within you, to reignite a spark and to shine light on the dark corners of your life that are in need of illumination. The cards are a tool that assist in answering questions and creating awareness within the querent and the results are undeniable.

I am a lifelong intuitive and have been working very successfully with tarot cards for over three years. I feel there is so much unnecessary pain and suffering in the world that I am here to tell you that there is good news and there are ways to eradicate lingering pain!

I predominantly work with clients in obtaining answers pertaining to relationships, work and finances, but my overarching aim as an intuitive reader and guide is to offer more.  My readings are thorough and go beyond ‘yes’ or ‘no’ answers. I will see connections to problems, solutions and roadblocks you may not be aware of.  It is my intention to keep you moving in a forward and awakened state–to empower you.

The tarot cards always give us the answers we need to hear, whether overtly positive or not. I will not candy coat a reading. If I am told to convey difficult information, there is a reason you need to hear it and it’s not my place to judge or always understand why. It’s my job to discern the meaning and to convey it to you in order to assist you in making thoughtful life decisions.

THE DECK:

Some readers offer countless options of card decks which is great, but I limit your choices in order to give you a more complete and meaningful reading. I have studied the Aleister Crowley Thoth and the classic Marseille decks, but have a much greater connection to the Rider-Waite deck.  I have spent more time with these incredibly symbolic cards and understand deeper meanings associated with them and am highly intuitive with this deck, so this is the one I use in my readings. I also offer readings with the amazing Oliver Hibbert deck which is a super stylized modern version of the Rider-Waite if you are interested in a more psychedelic rendering of the iconic images associated with the Rider-Waite, that is an option.

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THE READING:

Each reading will be in direct response to your query. There will always be takeaways to contemplate on and ideas to learn from.

The symbolism and placement of the cards is supremely important and my readings will always include thoughtful analysis and meditation on these things as well as factoring in reversals (reversed cards).

For your reading I will do a 10-Card Celtic Cross spread which will give information on where you are, where you’ve been and where you’re going in relation to your query.

A completed reading will be sent within 24 hours, usually much less or within the hour of the time the reading was done.

I will send your detailed reading and a PHOTO of your card spread.  Phone readings are also possible, but tend to be more lengthy and more expensive.  Your email reading is very thorough and includes TWO response emails in which to answer further questions and to clarify anything.

Before the reading, I will need to discuss briefly with you by email your general concern or the guidance you would like to receive. The cards will do the rest.  Payment for readings are done through PayPal and are a $15 donation which is representative of my time and energy.

Make An Appointment. 
Contact me at the link above to make an appointment or if you have any questions.

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I request that you be 18 years of age or older or have your parent or legal guardian’s consent in order to receive my services. Though I stand by my insights, I  do not guarantee the accuracy of them, or time frame they may play out for querent. The client is 100% responsible for any action taken based on their interpretation of the insights and energy work presented in a session. A session with Jim Luciois in no way meant to replace sound medical or legal advice and does not provide prophecy, or guaranteed accuracy on future predictions. The session should be taken as a guideline only and to assist the client in understanding the issues of past and future events. The fee is paid for the output of energy and time spent on the client’s behalf. By accepting this confirmation you release Librocio from any and all legal responsibility from your session.

What We Can Learn From Limahl

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This just goes to show that you never know where you might find words of wisdom and powerful things to reflect on that will help your spiritual growth and transformation. It never occurred to me to turn to 80s pop star Limahl of Kajagoogoo to contemplate one of the problems crippling so many people today–prescription drug use.

Prescribing meds to ‘fix’ our problems is a pet peeve of mine, particularly since we have seen them prescribed more frequently and at younger and younger ages. It’s disturbing to think that being on meds has become as normal as taking Vitamin C.  It’s become a rite of passage and parents seem not to hesitate in starting their kids on a lifetime of pain and suffering caused by meds that inhibit the body’s natural functions.

They dull our senses, they debilitate our ability to think and reason and every single one of them provide a host of side effects that we didn’t have before we started taking the meds to begin with.

In the song Too Shy, Limahl sings,

Modern medicine falls short of your complaints, try a little harder.
Moving in circles, won’t you dilate. Ooh, Baby try.

In these lyrics Limahl teaches us that we are a bunch of whiney babies and that prescription drugs will never solve our problems. We need to try harder.

He continues by telling us that we are not learning from our problems, only going in circles as if one foot is nailed to the floor. We need to expand our thinking and reach deeper, not obscure our ability to think by the use of meds. Then he says “Ooh, Baby try.” So you know he’s sincere.

Just a bit of levity here, but it’s not that I don’t believe it or think it’s a good message. Thanks, Limahl!

[Disclaimer and urge you to consult a doctor or get a second opinion before you decide to get off your meds or before you start to take them. Give your body a fighting chance, there are enough zombies in this world.]

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Are You Being Vampirized?

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I had a dream last night about an old friend. He was my best friend for 5 or 6 years.   We worked on creative projects together, we were even roommates for a while. But something happened and our friendship devolved into an energy-sucking one-way street.

I had moved to the opposite coast and noticed that our telephone conversations were becoming more and more one-sided and would end when he was done saying everything he needed to say. This went on for some time until I finally explained that we couldn’t be friends anymore. We got off the phone and I haven’t spoken to him since.

This was a very good friend and one I’ve thought about over the years, wondering how he was and what he was up to. Even now, 20 years later, I’m dreaming about the guy, still not knowing how he is, but confident that ending the friendship that was going nowhere needed to happen.

You might think that if you are such good friends with someone like this that you can overlook certain character flaws and behaviors that always put you second to their needs, but good friends don’t do that.

I was only able to end this friendship because I had just gone through an experience where I understood how it’s possible to be victimized by a vampire. Of course, I’m not talking about the kind that cringe at the sight of crosses and avoid daylight, I’m talking about psychic vampires.

I had started a job where I was assigned an office, a closet really, a tiny little space that fit a 12′ table and two small cube-shaped Apple computers. I shared this space with someone I really liked. A funny guy, a writer who loved to talk, loved to share and share and share. After a couple of months I noticed how exhausted I was after work. The work itself was a breeze, but I’d leave work completely depleted of all energy.

It got to the point where I dreaded going into this closet office. I really liked this co-worker friend, but it was like being an audience of one to a stand-up comedian doing an 8-hour schtick. That was vampirism.

He got all of his needs met. He had a captive audience. He got the responses he wanted. He got admiration and I laughed at the right times. I didn’t even get a T-shirt out of it, but I did learn something about people and about myself. I learned that people need validation at any expense and I learned that sometimes you have to say good-bye to people you love.

In the dream I had last night, it was the first time I’d seen my friend since we stopped being friends 20 years ago. There was a vibe that that was the past and we’re here now.  I was shocked when he introduced me to his twin brother. There were now TWO of my friends in front of me. I wondered why he never told me he had a twin and when I woke up I wondered what it could mean. Perhaps it meant that he’s a different person now and we can be friends again. If he knocked on my front door, I’d certainly give him a hug and ask him in, but I’d find out if it was the new twin or the old friend.

Ending relationships that serve no purpose is not easy, but sometimes it’s necessary. And if we’re lucky, they will mend over time and we can pick up where we left off.

 

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