Emergency Trigger Alert

PresidentialAlert01Yesterday we got our first ‘Presidential Alert’ message on the Wireless Emergency Alert System similar to Flood Warnings and Amber Alerts. We’ve all gotten them before.

But this one was different because it was from our President.

I was not surprised  that polarized people took to social media within seconds to voice their outrage, disgust and feelings of violation. One woman on Twitter even went so far as to say she’d been ‘raped’ by the intrusive alert. #MeToo echoed every other triggered SmartPhone user–Android, iPhone…didn’t matter. It was cross-platform abuse.

It’s hard to avoid making this a political commentary, but what I’m getting at is the level of rage that people are experiencing and how they are choosing misery over anything else. I’ve seen many level-headed people loose their stuff over the past couple of years.  Clear examples of cognitive dissonance and denial of reality had taken the driver’s seat and common sense and reason had been thrown out the back door.  Conversation or attempts at understanding was not even an option and has been routinely denied. It was very strange and the unusual behavior inspired me enough to write a book, but more than that, it’s concerning.

When people on your echo chambers of choice and social media spheres share their negativity, it should not inspire others to jump on board their misery train. Misery and pain of triggered individuals is not something that should inspire others to find it within themselves to be unahappy too.

These behaviors that throw us in a tailspin are things that we need to pay close attention to. We need to understand why we react as we do and how we are processing the information we’re gathering to come to conclusions that necessitate violence and intolerance.

It has come to the point where we need to stand together. And if it’s not all of us, we need to stand and assist those who do not see, understand or are under a programmed belief system.

Writing a book was one way I felt I could do something positive to counteract the negativity and division promoted by entertainment, the media and television programming and ‘news’.  My book Toxic Rainbows is just being released to different outlets and is currently available at Kobo.

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They Are Sooo Unhappy

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It seems that I can’t get out of the house without experiencing the pain of others.  I deleted my Facebook account last year to escape the pain and noise of the echo chamber that it is, but even walking into public, people appear beat-up and defeated.

Only yesterday I made the mistake of allowing an acquaintance’s Instagram post interfere with my thoughts and her update haunted me all day. The post was a photo of the sky, a beautiful clear, blue sky with a caption that read, “I am just about infuriated at how beautiful today is.” One more in a continuous stream of angry posts.  I had to comment, “Don’t almost be mad.”  It’s as if people require anguish in their lives and when even nature does not comply, they rebel and insist on locating that elusive misery.

 

A few hours later I ran into an old friend and somehow the subject came around to him saying, “Everyone is unhappy.”.  I didn’t know if he was being very honest or trying to make a joke, so I asked him to clarify and he said, “Yeah…everyone is unhappy including myself.” All I could think of was, “Not him too!”.

Each day gives me more purpose and makes me feel more dedicated to turning people around. Making them remember or to see through the fog of the delusion that it doesn’t have to be as miserable as they seem to be experiencing.

My book will be release in October 2018 and I’m very much looking forward for those in need to discover it and start to change their lives for the better. Let’s be done with this misery!

Look for Toxic Rainbows: Surviving and Thriving in the New Babylon on Amazon soon. Stat tuned.

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The Matrix Has You

MATRIXTHOUGHTS01Editing my book, Toxic Rainbows and sharing quotes and ‘Photos From The Matrix” to help illustrate some ideas.  The book will be released as an ebook this Fall. Follow here and/or Instagram for me about deprogramming and Exiting the Matrix. MATRIXTHOUGHTS02MATRIXTHOUGHTS03RAINBOWSFOOTER

Self Transformation Can Get Ugly


TRIGGEREDI have become fascinated by horror movies where people are transformed into monsters. The idea that a poison takes over or a contamination turns someone into a fiendish creature is an interesting theme for a movie, but the reality is that we are doing it to ourselves quite openly all the time.

Triggered. Child tantrums have made way for adult meltdowns and seriously low karmic behavior goes from the periodic to standard practice. We use labels and fear to justify our behavior, opt for selective outrage and express intolerance for anyone who refuses to take part in our rage.

Self Transformation and goals of attaining greater consciousness and atunement with Divine energy requires the type of self reflection and contemplation that results in clarity.  Without clarity and awareness, we can’t see or experience our actual reality and our emotions blind us and prevent us from experiencing equilibrium and happiness.

Maintaining balance in a world that appears designed to throw us off our game is not always easy even when we are fully aware of our triggers. Instinctively we yearn for balance. Tension, hostility, doubt, uncertainty, fear…all these things are byproducts of the misery brought on by a lack of balance.

It is a Law of Nature that if you express hatred and anger, that’s what you get more of in your life. It will even express itself in the way you look. We all owe it to ourselves to calm the beast within and understand that the real monsters are not exterior to us.

The image here is from the 80s horror film The Beast Within and the title should  be reflected on by anyone who struggles with responsibility and blame.

Your personal growth and self-transformation is going to take more than repeating a few inspirational quotes and jumping on a culty New Age bandwagon. It might get ugly before the rainbows and unicorns start appearing. But never fear, you are not alone.

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What We Can Learn From Limahl

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This just goes to show that you never know where you might find words of wisdom and powerful things to reflect on that will help your spiritual growth and transformation. It never occurred to me to turn to 80s pop star Limahl of Kajagoogoo to contemplate one of the problems crippling so many people today–prescription drug use.

Prescribing meds to ‘fix’ our problems is a pet peeve of mine, particularly since we have seen them prescribed more frequently and at younger and younger ages. It’s disturbing to think that being on meds has become as normal as taking Vitamin C.  It’s become a rite of passage and parents seem not to hesitate in starting their kids on a lifetime of pain and suffering caused by meds that inhibit the body’s natural functions.

They dull our senses, they debilitate our ability to think and reason and every single one of them provide a host of side effects that we didn’t have before we started taking the meds to begin with.

In the song Too Shy, Limahl sings,

Modern medicine falls short of your complaints, try a little harder.
Moving in circles, won’t you dilate. Ooh, Baby try.

In these lyrics Limahl teaches us that we are a bunch of whiney babies and that prescription drugs will never solve our problems. We need to try harder.

He continues by telling us that we are not learning from our problems, only going in circles as if one foot is nailed to the floor. We need to expand our thinking and reach deeper, not obscure our ability to think by the use of meds. Then he says “Ooh, Baby try.” So you know he’s sincere.

Just a bit of levity here, but it’s not that I don’t believe it or think it’s a good message. Thanks, Limahl!

[Disclaimer and urge you to consult a doctor or get a second opinion before you decide to get off your meds or before you start to take them. Give your body a fighting chance, there are enough zombies in this world.]

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Are You Being Vampirized?

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I had a dream last night about an old friend. He was my best friend for 5 or 6 years.   We worked on creative projects together, we were even roommates for a while. But something happened and our friendship devolved into an energy-sucking one-way street.

I had moved to the opposite coast and noticed that our telephone conversations were becoming more and more one-sided and would end when he was done saying everything he needed to say. This went on for some time until I finally explained that we couldn’t be friends anymore. We got off the phone and I haven’t spoken to him since.

This was a very good friend and one I’ve thought about over the years, wondering how he was and what he was up to. Even now, 20 years later, I’m dreaming about the guy, still not knowing how he is, but confident that ending the friendship that was going nowhere needed to happen.

You might think that if you are such good friends with someone like this that you can overlook certain character flaws and behaviors that always put you second to their needs, but good friends don’t do that.

I was only able to end this friendship because I had just gone through an experience where I understood how it’s possible to be victimized by a vampire. Of course, I’m not talking about the kind that cringe at the sight of crosses and avoid daylight, I’m talking about psychic vampires.

I had started a job where I was assigned an office, a closet really, a tiny little space that fit a 12′ table and two small cube-shaped Apple computers. I shared this space with someone I really liked. A funny guy, a writer who loved to talk, loved to share and share and share. After a couple of months I noticed how exhausted I was after work. The work itself was a breeze, but I’d leave work completely depleted of all energy.

It got to the point where I dreaded going into this closet office. I really liked this co-worker friend, but it was like being an audience of one to a stand-up comedian doing an 8-hour schtick. That was vampirism.

He got all of his needs met. He had a captive audience. He got the responses he wanted. He got admiration and I laughed at the right times. I didn’t even get a T-shirt out of it, but I did learn something about people and about myself. I learned that people need validation at any expense and I learned that sometimes you have to say good-bye to people you love.

In the dream I had last night, it was the first time I’d seen my friend since we stopped being friends 20 years ago. There was a vibe that that was the past and we’re here now.  I was shocked when he introduced me to his twin brother. There were now TWO of my friends in front of me. I wondered why he never told me he had a twin and when I woke up I wondered what it could mean. Perhaps it meant that he’s a different person now and we can be friends again. If he knocked on my front door, I’d certainly give him a hug and ask him in, but I’d find out if it was the new twin or the old friend.

Ending relationships that serve no purpose is not easy, but sometimes it’s necessary. And if we’re lucky, they will mend over time and we can pick up where we left off.

 

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Are You In Hell?

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SOURCE: Samhain, #6.

You might gather by my use of the imagery above that this is not necessarily a fuzzy rainbows and group hug New Age spirituality blog. Like tough love, tough graphics work  to get a point across too so time and again I will likely be using some unconventional visuals to accompany my writing.

When I came across this photo from Clive Barker’s Hellraiser it reminded me of why I started doing the work that I’m doing.

When you become more in tune with your true inner being; when awareness shifts and your priorities change, more meaning can be gathered from your every day experiences.  Subtlties scream out. You begin to see people a bit differently and sense something about them that maybe they are not even aware of. You start to see the dissatisfaction around you. There is a sense of loss that people exude. They think the emptiness can be filled by jumping on causes, binge watching tv, downloading a new App or getting more ‘likes’ on a post. It’s a never ending battle to find and express meaning in a world where our digital cries for attention are replaced by something else within seconds of our putting them out there.

Besides the hellish digital world in which we live, I have started to feel as if hell really is on earth. From hateful music and horrible television programming that is passed off as entertainment, to the casual sexualizing of children and the constant calls for violence and fear mongering in the news and on late night, it’s enough to make you pause and wonder. How did we become so desensitized to violence and so quick to desregard the thoughts and opinions of others in favor of expressing our displeasure in everything? Is it the meds, programming or simply a distraction from doing what really needs to be done? (And we know what that is.)

When I was a kid in the 80s, a holdover line from the late-70s was ‘Kill the Hippies!’. Back then it was funny, it was a joke that nobody would every actually follow through on, it was punk rock.  Now we’ve lost our sense of humor as well as our reasoning.

Let’s rise above the cesspool, find that person deep within and nuture him or her. Give your love and attention to the person that matters most, you. Let’s come to some conclusions and understanding by consulting ourselves. Let’s understand our motives and feelings. Let’s use our reasoning abilities and cognitive skills instead of acting out emotionally.  We need to find our purpose and get a better understanding of why we are here in the first place.

Things in the world will never be perfect, but we can at least try to get to a place that feels better within ourselves and it’s not going to happen when we focus on everything else besides what’s going on within–and that’s the work that needs to be done.

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Just Suffer

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SUFFERING. When I was a kid we used to say, “Suffer!” as a way of saying, “Too bad, deal with it.” I thought it was funny back then, but now it’s all too painfully real.

We NEED to experience emotional pain in order to understand what it’s like to be free from it and to overcome it. We do ourselves a disservice when we shield our children from experience and every unpleasantness. We fall deeper into a despair that we can’t begin to fathom when we choose to cover our real and imagined problems with medication, labels or a host of other distractions.

We literally need to suffer through things in order to overcome them. That’s how we get stronger and that’s how we grow. So the next time someone tells you to ‘suffer’ just say, ‘Ok, no problem.’.

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Accept This Truth

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I have been trying to get my point across for as long as I can remember.  I have lingering memories of questioning things and wanting answers, my Lilliputian defiance demanded it. It’s no surprise that this photo came to mind as I considered the starting point for this blog.

Even here at the age of four, I can almost recall a sense of knowing something about the world that was not told to me, but was just there in my mind to ask about and then confront adults when their actions veered from the sensical.

I’ve learned a lot since this time and am much less confrontational. I’ve come to understand that there is no such thing as a single truth and that each person creates his own version of what truth is, whether it is based in reality or not.

One of our purposes in life is to understand truth, but in order to grasp this, we first need to know ourselves. When we think about knowing ourselves, it doesn’t mean the labels we attach to our physical being–parent, teacher, friend, traveler, advisor, mechanic,  activist, artist…the labels are infinite. And neither are we our sex, race, marital status or gender.

Labels we use to describe ourselves are great on forms, statistics and classification. They function as a means of telling other people where you fit on the pie chart. All media, advertisers and politicians will then find you on this pie chart from hell and tell you how you should be feeling, what you should accept or reject, what you can be happy or upset about and ‘Don’t worry because we know you, so you don’t have to’.

Knowing yourself is work. Stepping away from cultural and familial pressures and expectations is work. Finding your purpose and discovering your true inner self is work, but there is no better work than inner work.

In the past few years I have gone through some dramatic change and have had some intense inner discoveries. My life and worldview has dramatically improved. I have clarity where there was once uncertainty and distraction and as I continue to move forward I would like nothing more than for others to be on a path of discovery right along with me.

Like the mouthy child in the photo above, I have much more to say and will be sharing my insights, thoughts and personal experiences with anyone who cares to hear about them. I encourage comments and questions as well.

Updates and progress on my book, POST-SANITY will also be posted here. FOLLOW ME ON INSTAGRAM, TOO!

– JIM

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